Just like Tanya Tucker in “Down to my last tear drop” that’s what I’ve been doing…
“re-arranging chairs on a ship that’s going down”. I sense a furniture theme happening here…
Regardless of furniture, that’s been on my mind today. Ever since I started on this journey to change my life I’ve found one thing or another to do instead of making a change.
I’ve got a million (or maybe slightly less) podcasts from my favourite change and life coach guru’s and I listen to them for about 90 minutes a day while I’m driving. I’ve built this website to its current state but aside from the few posts I’ve done, I’ve been mostly decorating the place and getting it ready for company – which I have none of right now so why worry about polishing the sidebars? And I’ve pretty much used every other spare minute to find something else to occupy my time rather than truly forging ahead and making a plan and getting on with it already.
Hell, I’ll be 90 before I take the first step!
The first step does not have to be giant.
Ok, honestly I have made a few steps… baby steps.
- I have been working really hard at improving my diet.
- I am trying with some success, to limit my coffee intake to 1 cup a day and other than last night, I’ve done that.
- I have been eating a healthy morning meal and been pretty good at the others as well
- And today I went for a walk on the beach – it wasn’t much, or long, but it was more and longer than any of the other walks I’ve taken this week (none)
- I looked at taking a writing course but got frustrated trying to find one and gave up on that for now.
I’ve really been doing a lot of thinking about what I want to be when I grow up. Yes, I did mention before that I was born in 1960 but… I’m really not loving my job right now.
I was thinking that perhaps I’m not loving my job because I’m not throwing myself at it, I have a couple of challenging projects coming up that just are kind of freaking me out and I’ve procrastinated them forever – today I did make an effort to be present for my job and not get distracted into doing nothing work related all day.
So I think it’s time to go back to the To Do List and firm up a couple of things – instead of just thinking about them, actually make a concrete plan to change something. One foot in front of the other.
I’m going there now.