I was born in 1960. Somewhere between then and now I stepped on to a life path that, other than the occasional twist and wind, seems to have maintained a certain level of dull consistency. Over the years I have been married twice and divorced once, become a parent to three amazing children, and settled into a career that once seemed like my purpose but now seems like drudgery. Don’t get me wrong, my current life has served me well so far.  I have had both amazing highs and devastating lows, shed tears of happiness and have wailed in despair but I know as surely as I type this, I would trade nothing in. One might wonder …. the failed marriage, the failed adoption, the cancer, the deaths of loved ones…. wouldn’t I trade them? No. I am the sum of my accumulated experiences. However….  Maybe this happens to everyone, maybe not.  Maybe it’s a midlife crisis, maybe I’m actually loosing my mind – I don’t know ‘why’ but suddenly my life path has been intercepted by a sense of something else. It’s like the movement you see out of the corner of your eye, something exists just on the edge of my peripheral vision – another version of my life and I just feel like if I step off the path I’ve been following my whole life, that maybe something spectacular would happen.  Spectacular is not a word I have ever used to describe my life and really, I think I would like to – if even for a little while. So I am here to chart a new course and I want to do it out loud – in public – because when you are doing something that takes strength and commitment, sometimes it helps to announce your intention.  My intention is to change, to chase down that unlived life and move in to it. This is going to be a process, not an over night thing but I’ve got a little time – if I use it wisely I think it will pay off.

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