Alone

Ok, well, I’m seldom alone but this as of right now I’m about to spend the third consecutive night alone in our king sized bed.

This is not the first time in 25 years that I’ve been on my own with the kids by any stretch of the imagination.  My husband has been going off on his solitary vacations periodically for a few years now but it’s usually a week – maybe even two weeks.  This is the first time that I’m looking out into the horizon and not really being able to wrap my head around how long this vacation actually is.

Looking outside at the snow and thinking that in 3 months it will be April.  Last April it was running around a balmy 15°c outside – the grass was greening, jackets were being discarded – spring!

Unfortunately, and I’m thinking this might just be some kind of cosmic tom foolery, nothing has been going right since he left.

Truth be told though, the few days leading up to my husband’s departure were not great at work – tackling a giant project that was stressful and time consuming probably wasn’t the best timing but that’s life right?  If I was actually single, I would still have to do my job, regardless of what else was going on in my life so fine…. the universe wants to play that way, I’ll play along.

So work has me running around and working extra hours (something I rarely have to do) and the kids chime in and add to the chaos.

The middle kid in particular presenting me with his unique brand of challenges.

It was suggested that he might be acting out because his Dad has gone off but honestly, so far it really isn’t that much different from his usual ‘ball of raging hormone puberty in progress’ self – I just decided this time I wasn’t going to play along.

New Year, new outlook and I don’t have time for him to play “if I irritate mom long enough she’ll stop asking me to do stuff”.

It’s all good though.  This is just normal life with normal stress and sometimes it’s easier to handle this kind of thing without having to deal with an uncooperative or uneven tempered peanut gallery offering his 2¢.  It’s kind of nice to make the decisions, take the action and move on without having to discuss it to death.

So far, still liking single – but hey, it’s still early… I could change my mind.

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